another blabber post

You know there are times I just look back at your comments, our old conversations (I really wish I had all the old convos from when we first started talking!), and emails...
And I was just reading the last comment...

and well something kinda funny popped into my head...

I remember in the beginning,...like when the first time we talked...
When I saw your profile...of all the things I remember that you said that you were a Strict Professor.
And that was exactly what attracted me towards you..
I guess my understading of the lifestyle was pretty immature...

I now understand that it takes a real man to take someone elses' life into your own hands and treat it just like it is yours.
It takes a soft gentle person to feel and understand real love.... which I think should be the basis of every relationship..be it vanilla or not...

Silly me wanted a guy who could be rough with me... :-)
What is a spanking, a caning, a punishment when it comes from someone who doesnt give a damn

I now realize that deep within I was craving for someone to love me... just for who I am... And in doing so, making me a better person.

LOL this went from being a random blabber post to an emotional one! :-)

I love you...
kissssss