Feb 28

I am just very confused about last night.. and I dont even know where to start from...
I remember this one time we were talking about things we can do...or rather things you wanted to do to me... and I told you I was scared... and to that you said that you did not want to scare me...
And then last night... you were doing very possible thing to scare me...
So which one of those is real....
Was last night some kinda test.... I know you were trying to push my limits...and see how far I can go...
I really dont see why you had to scare me...
Shouldnt I want to stay with you because that is what I want... I mean I would think that you would want me to really want this... and not have be a submissive out of fear...
I am really trying to understand why....
I am sorry that things I have done for you till now werent proof enough of what I really want and how serious I am about this...
I dont remember the last time I was so scared...
This was like a whole new side of you I havnt seen before
And being new to the lifestyle I think makes things even more harder and difficult to understand.
I just want you to know that I love you... And thats the only thing I know right now