Conclusion

This week passed by so quickly...
And it was one of the most beautiful and rewarding weeks ever...
I loved spending every passing moment with him...

On Tuesday that ugly unexpected period threw all my plans off!
I so needed to be fucked!
But... now there are no regrets nor any sort of feeling that I missed out on anything...
We got to spend a good amount of time talking to each others...and connecting on a personal basis.
Friday was interesting... I think I was being a little too naughty... and then I got punished for my behavior when he spanked my boobies
It didnt last too long... I guess his hand was just too strong and my skin just too sensitive!
3 days after...and you can still clearly see that I was punished!
As he said.... this was the real deal!
I loved it so much.

And then...came today morning...(he drove up north to see his daughter over the weekend)
I started out the day feeling kinda sad... not wanting to say goodbye...
But then I covered how I was feeling with big smile on my face.
I had to enjoy every minute. (And I didnt have many!)

The drive to the airport was kinda weird...
I was thinking to myself that of all the things I had imagined....saying goodbye wasnt one.
I got to spend the last hour with him...holding his hand, kissing him, being thankful for all that had happened...

I got to show him my serious side...
I got to show him my life...
I got to just lay peacefully next to him
I got to be my goofy self in front of him :-)
I got to be me....
He saw me cry
He saw me smile
He saw me freak out at the sight of bugs and lizards!
He got to see me.... off of the computer screen!


And then came that moment for him to go....
I tried so hard to hold back the tears... but I guess I didnt do a good job.

I stood there as he walked through security...
Wanting one more hug.... one more kiss... one more chance to look into his eyes and tell him that I loved him.

I feel sad... I miss him...
I kinda hope he feels the same way as I do.
I understand that he still wants time to pass till we get to a more solid 'us'.... and I am going to put in as much time and effort needed in trying to make this work for the best.
This was a wonderful time

I am so thankful I met you, baby. You have brought so much joy and love into my life, I cant possibly thank you enough! The past week was amazing and I loved spending every minute with you. I can only hope life brings good things for us...together.