Blabber

That post was becoming too long...so I decieded to write a new one.
I figured that those that really want to know about us can scroll down and look!

About the story that you wanted me to wtrite...
I have been thinking about it...
And well thinking about a lot of other things too...

The more I think about this blog... the more vulnerable I feel...but I feel protected and safe at the same time too.
With your visit not too far from now.... We will get to know if there is something here.

.... I cant help thinking about what happens if we are not meant to be...
Yes we will always be great friends...I am sure about that...
I guess the test I took before got me thinking...
More of you agreeing with the results...
Is this the right thing for me?
I think so... but am I a good enough sub?
Have I grown from what I used to be in the very beginning?
Yes I know I dont have any kind of test results to tell me how submissive I am... but can you tell from the way I am with you?

Sometimes I wish we had done more 'experimenting' online... but then I also understand why we didnt.
I wish you had made me tie myself up and clamp up my tits and have me let it be there until you thought it was enough.
Without caring how much it hurt....
Does that make me a pain slut for wishing you had just hurt me like that?

I had figured that the week before you were coming would be a very challenging week for me.... with ups and downs....
I KNOW I want this
Sometimes I just wish I would know how things were going to be at the end of your stay

I told you I was going to freak out... :-)

please dont worry about this...

anyways...back to why I was writing this post to begin with...
please can I be excused from writing it?

every time I start out writing... I delete it.
it just makes me feel really vulnerable to write about my fantasies...
You already know what I want...
We have talked about it a several times...

I hope you understand what I feel..

I am sorry Master