One year later....

He came into my life when I least expected it....
I had become a regular in the Yahoo! Chat Rooms ever since I had discovered my fascination of this lifestyle... It was just another night... I was just looking for some online play...
I saw him in the room... I was looking at his profile when he sent me a message.
We talked about ourselves and our interest in the lifestyle. I told him I was new to this lifestyle and wanted to be a submissive.
We talked more and more...from that point on.
We soon started this blog... to help with this training and discovery process.
It was this blog and his encouragement that brought about my deepest and most passonate thoughts and feelings.
I feel that our relationship grew deeper and stronger because of this blog...because it made it easier for me to express and say what I felt.
It became my place to vent out my raw emotions when he wasnt around.

With time... our relationship became stronger.

It was all really more than I could ask for.
There were good times and bad.
I think the ones I am most greatful for are all the bad times... as it is those bad times that brought us closer together.
I was falling in love with him...more and more each day.
He was always caring and understanding.

We have shared some stupid arguments, long meaningless conversations, and our dreams and hopes for the future.

Our relationship was great... And then came that afternoon when he said he could be coming to my area for a work related training class.
It didn't sink in... he told me about it out of the blue on that Friday afternoon. I was surprised... And I don't think I understood what that meant only after he actually said it.
That could have been just what we had been looking for... a chance to meet and take our relationship a step further.

The next few weeks went on with feelings of anxiousness, fear, and happiness to name a few.

And then came the day I remember like it was yesterday...
I couldn't sleep a wink the night before....
And then when I was driving to the airport that evening I was so nervous... but I was very happy. I shed a few happy tears thinking how lucky I was to get this opportunity to meet the man I had cared for and loved so much.

When he smiled at me... everything in that moment was just perfect.
We were finally in the same time zone!
I could finally touch him, and kiss him, and look into his eyes and tell him I loved him.
I remember the time he first kissed me, the time he held me so tight, the time we lay in bed next to each others hearing each others breathe.
There was a lot I remember.
I always wished and hoped I could have spent more time with him... but no matter what, those days were the best 9 days of my life.

We could love each others as much in real life as we could through our computer screens,... if not more.

Seeing him go was very hard. All I wanted was to lean on him and hold his arm and never let go. But it wasn't a good-bye.

His visit was perfect and just at the right time.
We got to know each others and our bond grew even stronger.

Baby, we have been through ups and downs. Good days and bad. You have always been there for me... and for that I am thankful.
I love you so much.
You are everything I could want in a perfect man...and then some more.


I wish I could bring out my creativity and emotions through beautiful words... but since I can't... I wanted to just put this here...

Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful nor conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure....
whatever comes.
('A Walk To Remember' by Nicholas Sparks)

I love you baby and I promise to give my all to you...and us.
I will be strong in the hard and difficult times. And I will always be there for you.

I have been thinking about the right thing to say...
You sent me an e-mail early on this year that says exactly what I feel....

"I love you bhumi.. and I care deeply about you. I don't know what the future really holds, but I do know that no matter what happens, no matter where our lives take us, I will love you and care for you."

I completely agree with what you say baby.... There is no guarantee as to what will happen tommorow...not even today... Like you have said before... it is best to take things one day at a time. You have changed my life and always been there for me... I am very thankful... I will never forget everything I have learned in this year... and all the things I will learn in our journey together.

I look forward to and am hopeful for our tommorow.
Always know...that no matter what... I will always love you and care deeply about you.

I love you, Tom!

xoxo