Feeling like I should be...

I havn't had much so say in so long...
But today I do...
I feel so extremely submissive today.... and not for any particular reason...I have been living a faily vanilla life...
I barely get to talk to Master of lately...but I feel extremely submissive today...

I can't explain it...I am typically very bratty....
I was extremely submissive in the beginning when I was new to the lifestyle... and mostly remained that way until we met...
But once I was comfortable being around him... once I knew what to expect when it came to lifestyle... I got more comfortable... and I have progressively become a real brat... so much as to a point where I was arguing with Master...

And now here I am today... and I so want to serve him....
I crave to be controlled.... not necessarily sexually...
I just need to feel completely controlled ...

This feeling is almost as strong of my desire for pain of lately...
I just miss that sting...It's hard to explain
Many times I've just wanted to go to the nearest tattoo parlor and get a clit hood piercing...just because I need to feel the pain so desperately!
Maybe it's weird.... but maybe this shows who I really am...

I don't like being a brat... I feel more content as being submissive...but being bratty just comes more naturally...

Anyways.... I found this great video of 'The Secretary'...
The music is amazing...and ofcourse so is the movie...





For Master...
I love you and I miss you very much...
Hope your cold is going away... I wish I could be there to do just about anything and everything for you...
Miss you loads

XOXO