day 15

9:20AM - I do this all the time.... I give up too easy...
I am not going to get the dog...not right now..
I really need my family to support what I am doing since I am living with them....

I decieded while I was driving my mom to work...

And then I thought how this could be used as being an indication of how I would deal with the difficulties we would have to face..
Please dont think like that... please believe in me...
That's just one thing I need so bad... because I dont think there is anyone that really believes in me...

If only I could be spanked right now...


:-(

9:30PM - Today has been a pretty hard day.. with things at home.. especially my aunt and cousins.
Everyone sseems to enjoy pointing out all the negatives in me...
I am the only person here at home that has faults...and everyone else is perfect
And everyone enjoys pissing me off... knowing very well what they are doing

I am going to bed now... When I wake up I dont even wanna think about today
Id rather not talk about it... It sucks when no one understands you