day 14

12:20PM - Kissss. Thanks for last night... it was just wonderful. It's good when you wake up and think about the night before and it brings a smile to your face.
Well not that I dont smile when I think about you on any other day...but yesterday was just a special warm feeling...
I love you :-)

2:40PM - I misssssssssssss you.
And you know how I tell you about the blogs I read... I think I am going to stop. Atleast some... becuase it kinda makes me sad to see people being able to enjoy a spanking when they deserve... All I get to cuddle with is my oversized pillow :-(
lol. dont worry... I am fine... I guess it goes with the whole needy thing..
The good thing... one more month...
It's kinda weird... and doesnt seem real... and I have a feeling it wont completely sink in until I finally get to see you... and touch you... and kiss you.... :-)
I love you baby... a lot..

3:50PM - JAMES BOND IS LUCKY! Yes he is... he gets to make out so much...
ARGHHHH
lol. yes yes I am wet and throbbing and needy and desperate.
Geez it's been a long time!!

4:20PM - uh huh... I have more to say...
Its like I feel like I just fell in love with you
like that new, fresh, blushy, butterflies in my stomach kinda feeling
lol
mmmmmmmmmmm kisssssss
love is in the air!! *blushing*

10:20PM - STRESSED OUT!!
So this afternoon I ended up going to my boss' house... she has 2 Westies and she told me to come over and play with the dogs and see what they are like..
So I went... and they were really cute and fun and sweet...
When I did research breeds Westies were one of the 2 i had narrowed down to.. and now I cant remember the other breed I had looked at.
So anyways...this evening I have been looking a lot online
and reading a lot aboout different kinds of terriers... those are what my boss told me about and also those you told me about...
And it's really stressful. I am scared what if I am not doing the right thing...
And no one supporting me makes it more difficult..
Is it the right time??? The right breed?
Can I afford it??
Arghh and it's time like these when I just want to just raise my hands and give up.
I am so bad under stress.. maybe I should just let this thought go...
And maybe get one afterwards...when maybe I am living by myself and don't have to worry about others...
I dunno....