Two Wonderful Years

Yesterday was our 2 year anniversary and I got a cute card and scary looking nipple clamps from him,,.,,,,.... I have been lazy with his gift.... I know what its going to be... but im just bad with dates and anniversaries....
Oh well....we had a long discussion about our lives and future and it ended at a good note I think...
I told him I would want him to have a local submissive..... that whole conversation just turned me on so much....
I love talking dirty with him.... I feel like a very dirty slut...
And I told him that I had cum twice the night before.... He told me to show him dirty pictures .... I was just so horny...he told me I wasn't allowed to cum or touch myself... I broke the rule I asked him to put in place to begin with.
I know he wasn't happy about that.... And I am glad I got punished for it. By the time we stopped talking I was dripping wet.... I was soo close to an orgasm but I wasn't about to cum...I wanted him soo bad... he just sent me to bed and it was right when I thought I couldnt take any more....


I really need to realize that ive given him control and that I can't cum or touch myself no matter how bad I want it....
it's just so hard cause I am almost always turned on.... but I will do it.

The weekend....

He punished me because I did not have my bullet with me when we talked Saturday night.... I am supposed to keep it along with me..it's kinda like one of those unsaid rules...

He wasn't pleased....he turned me on even more... I was in so much pain...my clit was hard and was begging to be touched. My cunt was dripping wet and he was showing no mercy.
After lots of teasing I told him I couldn't take any more... He let me stop staring pics and we were going to go to bed....but I had to be punished for not having the bullet then....
The next morning when I was going to drive home, I was supposed to do it without a bra on.

If someone else would have told me to do that (not that anyone would, but only if), I would have completely freaked out.... Being in public without a bra seems like such a big thing... I can't pull off the going without a bra... you can easily tell if I am not wearing one..

But there was no arguing with him.... I was to do what he was told. And I did.
I was so wet... I had to stop for gas and also at the restroom...and wondered each time if people noticed....

Oh well... I was just being his good girl... :-)

Rules... Revisited

Last night was very crazy....I had so much to drink when I went out with friends at work... This wad really my first time going out and just having a lot of fun in so long...
Anyways....all the vodka I had went right to my cunt.... The hot girls (and guys!) there was just a lot of eye candy...
I came home horny and wet... I sent some dirty messages to Master...
He came online for some time and I told him about what a night I had... I was drunk and probably needed the sleep...but I just wanted to be a naughty slut for my Master.... I told him I would do as he wanted me to...and that I wanted him to tell me what to do.
He told me to go take a nap and wake back up at midnight his time and wait for him. I did as I was told to....I woke up right when he told me to and then collected dirty poictures for Master until he came online...
And once he did we did some more of the dirty talking.... I love it so damn much when he calls me a slut and a whore. It's always great to be always reminded of my place...
As we were talking dirt I asked if I could use hte bullet...iwth his permission I put a new battery in and just pressed it down on my swollen throbbing clit...
More pictures exchanged and then I was thinking about more stuff.... I thought of something... I was remembering of when he had a rule for me...that I couldnt ask if I could cum...I just had to let him control it... But back then we didnt really take it seriously.... There were a few times wehn I broke the rule and then just lost track...
I asked him if he would be kind enough to reinforce the rule again...abnd that I wanted to be serious about it....
We discussed the guidelines and situalitions... (all while I was holding the bullet down on my clit) And he did.....

So now I can never ask if I can cum.....nor can I cum until he says I can...
He said that he might not just let me cum at all....

I think I might lose my mind if he wouldnt let me cum.....I am planning on being an extra good girl ...becauise I don't want to do anything to dissapoint Master.
I am also going to think about a punishment for myself....I absolutely need punishment to learn a lesson.,... if I don't I'll just cum when I want and then appologize to him for it... he is my Master and controls me and my body and I have to pay the price for not doing things the way he wants them to be done...

So I am thinking about the different possibilities....
One of the things I thought about today was that if one day I came...then the next day, as long as mMaster approved, I would have to go braless all day long...
I HATE that... Icant' just walk around without a bra on...itwould be too obvious... but maybe that will be an effective punishment...

I will think of more posibilities and see what he thinks.
Hope we come up with a set punishment... That will bethe only way I will be afriad of breaking the rules.....

No matter what, I love being his slut...
Writing this has got me soo wet too...but I am guessing I can't touch myself...

So I better go to bed,!!!

Memories

I find myself thinking about his visit all the time.... There are so many different things I think of....
Every little thing....

But today, I've been only been thinking of one thing....

The time when we were lying in bed and he was touching all over me.... making out was the usual thing... but then it was like he suddenly decided to take control...
Next thing I knew i had my legs spread and he was plunging his fingers keep into my cunt... I wasn't sure then how many fingers it was...but it hurt so much...and he wasn't about to stop... he just kept pushing them further and further in.... I was moaning and begging... and he asked I wanted him to stop.... Ofcourse I didn't...it hurt so damn good... but I was still sore from the previous nights and asked if he would use some lube....

He had 4 fingers keep inside of me.... I really didn't think it was possible.... I am so tight...and he has big hands....
We had mentioned fisting before and I always remembered him saying that it would take a lot of practice...
His 4 fingers felt so damn fucking good I can't wait to feel his fist deep inside me....


Just the thought of all this has made my nipples hard, cunt went and clit swollen.....
I'm just his horny little fucking slut

Overwhelmed

I am overwhelmed by everything I am feeling right now....

And it's actually a very good thing. I am so very much in love with my Master/bf.

My heart misses a beat every time I hear his voice, every time I get a phone call from him, every time I think of him....
Cause my heart is just so filled up with all the love I have for him.,...

I never felt thing strongly about him....or anyone else, ever.
His last trip just has brought us closer than we have ever been before....
And there is still room to grow,.... I really want to work on my being more of a submissive... I am not as 'good' a sub as I'd like to be...and I need to work on it. But we have the first step worked out... I trust him. I always have, but his last trip really solidified our relationship, for both of us.

I have been thinking a lot about our relationship....
I came across this wonderful blog recently ....its HERE ...
I have spent hours and hours reading the blog... My heart goes out for her... I feel her pain...
Many of her previous posts have had me thinking about Master and where we our.... I still have another window open with that blog.... I am really hooked on that blog. Please go check it out!

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I love you very much.
I will leave this song below to express how I feel.... I found this somewhere online.... and the lyrics and song just bring tears to my eyes.... I love you so much. XOXOXOX

Lyrics found here

I'll give my all
Or not at all
There's no in between
I'll give my best
Won't second guess
This feeling deep in me
You make me want to love you
With every breath I'll love you
Endlessly
I'll give my heart, give my soul
I won't hold back, I'll give you everything
All of me
Completely

You fill me up with your love
Oh, I just overflow
When we touch, I can't get enough
And I want you to know

You make me want to love you
With every breath I'll love you
Endlessly
I'll give my heart, give my soul
I won't hold back, I'll give you everything
All of me
Completely

You make me want to love you
With every breath I'll love you
Endlessly
I'll give my heart, give my soul
I won't hold back, I'll give you everything
All of me
Completely





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