Throbbing

I know this is nothing like my last romantic-ish post about last night...

I am fucking horny
I am so wet
and I want you so bad
I want you to fuck me.... to hurt me..

I need it soooooo bad

Last Night

Hi baby...
Last night was just very perfect...
At first when you talked about the future... it hit hard...
It was talking about things in a realistic view..

Many times I would just wish that you would be optimistic...
and maybe dream about things the way I do..

And then when you talked about your dream...

.... it just felt amazing... warm... just perfect in itself... even though there is a lot of things against us... just knowing we both want the same thing in the end... makes it all worth it

i love you :-)

another blabber post

You know there are times I just look back at your comments, our old conversations (I really wish I had all the old convos from when we first started talking!), and emails...
And I was just reading the last comment...

and well something kinda funny popped into my head...

I remember in the beginning,...like when the first time we talked...
When I saw your profile...of all the things I remember that you said that you were a Strict Professor.
And that was exactly what attracted me towards you..
I guess my understading of the lifestyle was pretty immature...

I now understand that it takes a real man to take someone elses' life into your own hands and treat it just like it is yours.
It takes a soft gentle person to feel and understand real love.... which I think should be the basis of every relationship..be it vanilla or not...

Silly me wanted a guy who could be rough with me... :-)
What is a spanking, a caning, a punishment when it comes from someone who doesnt give a damn

I now realize that deep within I was craving for someone to love me... just for who I am... And in doing so, making me a better person.

LOL this went from being a random blabber post to an emotional one! :-)

I love you...
kissssss

Love You

This is just me blabbering...
I am just happy...about last night... and that I have a person as wonderful as you that cares about me and loves me the way you do.
You are the sweetest nicest person
Thank you
I love you

Please fuck me

If I was there... I would come begging to you for your cock..
You would say, "Show me how bad you want it."
"Yes Master."
I sit down on the chair next to you. And then raise my legs upto my chest and spread them wide.
You see my clit piercing wet and shining.
You grab it and pull it hard. I gasp.
"Please Master...please can you fuck me?"
"You want me to fuck this you stupid bitch?" You ask as you slide 2 fingers into my pussy.
"Yes please."
"And again you forget that this is my pussy and you are not allowed to want anything. I decide what that fuck hole deserves. Do you understand?"
"Yes Master... forgive me."
"Stupid Bitch. Tell me why you are wet."
"I was reading a friends blog and she was talking about how her husband punished her for not keeping the house clean."
"How did he punish her?"
"He spanked her."
"I see. Go get the flogger, the paddle, and the cane."
"Mmmmm...Yes Master."
I return soon and place all three on the table before you.
"Sit back the way you were."
I sit down on the chair and again raise my legs and spread them. You look at my piercing and its wetter than what it was before. You grab it and pull it again...not letting go you say, "Do you know why I am going to punish you?"
"Because I wanted you to fuck me... and I am not supposed to because this is not my pussy...it is yours Master."
You pull on the metal piercing even harder. I gasp.
"Bitch I already told you that...another reason!"
"Sorry Master... I dont know."
"Because you are supposed to be dripping wet for my cock. You werent wet enough when you came asking for it. What have I told you before?"
"That I should be ready to cum for your cock when I desire it."
You let go of my pierced clit... You pull out some rope from your desk. You tie my legs up and then tie me to the chair. My legs are spread wide... my pussy dripping.
"Dont you dare cum until I tell you to."
"Yes Master...I wont. I promise."
You grab the flogger.
"Count till 21."
You raise your hand and strike my pussy with every intent to make me scream in pain.
Moaning and gasping... "1"
"2"
"3"
"4"
"5"
"6"
"7"
"8"
"9"
"Oh god...10"
"11"
"12"
"13"
By this time by pussy is blood red and throbbing and hurting like never before.
"No please...please it hurts...."
"Excuse me... What did you say bitch?"
"Master it hurts so much...please dont...please.."
"Do you want me to increase the number of times I spank you?"
"No Master."
"Good... continue with 14."
"14"
"15"
Sobbing.
"16"
"Oh... ahhh.. 17"
"18"
"19"
"10"
"21"
My pussy is bright red and sore. Tears rolling down my eyes and I am sobbing in pain.
"Now lets see how wet you are"
You stick a finger into my pussy and wiggle it around a bit.
You pull it out and stick in into my mouth.
I lick it... swallowing my cum.
"Thats how wet you should have been when you came to me."
"Forgive me Master."
"Not yet my cum slut."


You would then use the paddle... and then the cane.
21 times each.
All at my pussy. Leaving me sore and in extreme pain when you are done with them.
You would then caress my pussy...feeling the warmth of the gushing blood under my skin.
And when I finally catch my breath, you would go back to your desk and grab two clothespins.
"I know usually I would end this here....but not today..."
You walk up to me and place them on my nipples. I start crying again.
You walk upto my pussy and again caress it a while. Then pull out your cock and tease my pussy.
"Oh Master please dont... it hurts so much...please spare me tonight."
You smile.
"No sweetie...not tonight. I want you to cum while I fuck you."
I dont say anything...
You get your cock ready and position yourself.
You would then fuck my sore spanked pussy. You would pound it. You would make me cry in pain. You would force me to cum. And then deepthroat me and make me swallow your cum.
You would then untie me and remove the clothespins...
My body trembling,....I sob a little... and then pass out in your arms.
You smile and tuck me into bed.

Why...

Why do things have to be so hard...
Why do we have to be so far apart...

Why is it that the most convinient time for the both of us have to be in the middle of the night...
I know you are busy... the time difference is a big killer...

But there are days that I just want more...
I just need more time

Hi

I miss you...
I love you!!