Missing His Taste...

There is so much I have been missing from when he was visiting...
Of all the things, I really miss being his bitch.
I miss getting down on the floor and sucking his cock. I miss the feeling of him growing in my mouth as I licked him, sucked him.
I miss him telling me not to stop.

I remember how I really struggled with his huge cock in my mouth the first day...
These pictures reminded me of our times together.


I remember very well how I struggled and tried to get it all the way in...but I just couldnt. I was gagging only with a few inches in my mouth. I wondered how I could possibly get it all in.

I then remember how he grabbed my hair and said we were going to try something else. I remember him forcing my head all the way down his length. I remember gagging and crying. I remember fighting for air... but also wanting more of his cock...
I remember that feeling in the back of my throat.
I still remember his wonderful taste in my mouth.


I remember how it got a little easier every time we did it.
I miss him calling me his bitch, his good girl as I pleased him.

I miss gagging on his cock.
I miss his smell. I miss his touch. I miss his taste... in my mouth

P.S. We used to share kinky pictures every now and then... and that would be my way of showing him what I am or would be interested in... And we havnt been able to do that in a while since my laptop has been screwed up. Even though I hope to have my laptop ready and in good condition by tommorow, I had to do this today... just as a reminder of our photo sharing we used to do. I shall have some of the kinky pictures I share with him on here too! ;-)

Conclusion

This week passed by so quickly...
And it was one of the most beautiful and rewarding weeks ever...
I loved spending every passing moment with him...

On Tuesday that ugly unexpected period threw all my plans off!
I so needed to be fucked!
But... now there are no regrets nor any sort of feeling that I missed out on anything...
We got to spend a good amount of time talking to each others...and connecting on a personal basis.
Friday was interesting... I think I was being a little too naughty... and then I got punished for my behavior when he spanked my boobies
It didnt last too long... I guess his hand was just too strong and my skin just too sensitive!
3 days after...and you can still clearly see that I was punished!
As he said.... this was the real deal!
I loved it so much.

And then...came today morning...(he drove up north to see his daughter over the weekend)
I started out the day feeling kinda sad... not wanting to say goodbye...
But then I covered how I was feeling with big smile on my face.
I had to enjoy every minute. (And I didnt have many!)

The drive to the airport was kinda weird...
I was thinking to myself that of all the things I had imagined....saying goodbye wasnt one.
I got to spend the last hour with him...holding his hand, kissing him, being thankful for all that had happened...

I got to show him my serious side...
I got to show him my life...
I got to just lay peacefully next to him
I got to be my goofy self in front of him :-)
I got to be me....
He saw me cry
He saw me smile
He saw me freak out at the sight of bugs and lizards!
He got to see me.... off of the computer screen!


And then came that moment for him to go....
I tried so hard to hold back the tears... but I guess I didnt do a good job.

I stood there as he walked through security...
Wanting one more hug.... one more kiss... one more chance to look into his eyes and tell him that I loved him.

I feel sad... I miss him...
I kinda hope he feels the same way as I do.
I understand that he still wants time to pass till we get to a more solid 'us'.... and I am going to put in as much time and effort needed in trying to make this work for the best.
This was a wonderful time

I am so thankful I met you, baby. You have brought so much joy and love into my life, I cant possibly thank you enough! The past week was amazing and I loved spending every minute with you. I can only hope life brings good things for us...together.

Evening #2

Yesterday was another wonderful day.
Starting with the now seeming usual hugs and kisses.... leading upto me naked, at his feet, sucking his cock.
I cant even remember the real order (I think I was enjoying what I was doing too much), but there was a lot of sucking cock, sucking nipples, some erotic biting, lots of moanings..... and HARD spanks on my bare behind.
I was busy sucking his cock when I got the first smack.... I had a feeling it was coming... but it still took me by surprise....
As he raised his hand... I wrapped my lips tightly around him...and then it landed hard on my right side!
My heart started beating hard...
I was still sucking his cock as my behind began to sting.
And then came another one!
I tried not to be too loud.... but I just wanted to moan with lots of pleasure!
And this was only a little warm-up....
He then sucked and licked and teased my clit and pussy....
And then fingered my very tight hole....
Or should I say tried to! I got to realize how tight I really was after recieving some more hard stinging spanks.
After laying in bed with him a little... I got on top of him and got ready to take him in me.
The moments of getting him inside my pussy were very painful and at the same time a turn on.
I got off when it hurt a lot.... and then tried again!
And the pain did not ease off at all the second time around.
He said he couldnt even move in there! lol

Before I left he gave me a cute little birthday gift.... He gave me a tiny little battery. And then he removed that thing in which in belonged from his pocket.
After sticking the battery in... he teased me with that cute looking bullet.
The buzzing got me going..and made my sore pussy oh so wet!

This morning.... I am still sore.
It meant a lot that he made me stop just because I was hurting so much!
Its a funny thought that I might need just as much lube on my pussy as someone else would if they were trying to take a cock in the back!!

(I honestly don't care how sore I am... I need to be fucked hard! lol)

I am so glad he is here... and I enjoy spending every moment with him.

The day I have been waiting for....

Where do I start....
Today was just beautiful.
My heart was pounding so hard when I was driving to the airport.
I was happy...and nervous...and just so damn anxious!
And then... I saw him.... looking just so wonderful!
I could feel my pussy throbbing as he gave me a quick kiss and a warm hug.
HE IS FINALLY HERE!
lol
The drive to dinner....was kinda weird.
I guess I was just nervous.
And then him looking at me made me even more nervous!! LOL

Dinner was good.... It was a good way to just talk...
And then to the hotel room!!

It just felt so wonderful when he held me in his arms and kissed me.
His hands caressing my body....

Thank you Master for all the hugs and kisses
Thank you for rubbing my clit and leaving me breathless
Thank you for letting me take your cock in my mouth

Thank you for everything today...and all that is to come!
I love you!

blabbering

Just another day..... and what do I feel??
my heart is pounding hard

ummm .... i dont have the words....

im anxious... and this day needs to get over soon!!

awaiting

It's soo weird to be talking to you about where to meet and stuff,
Like you said....see you soon baby.... literally!!
lol

It's so easy to be a naughty girl
To think about sucking you hard
about gagging on your cock
about you fucking me hard
oops.... i forgot to mention the spanking! LOL


lotss of thoughts....
:-)

i am happy
i am anxious
i am ready


*fingers crossed*

i dont know what i feel...
too many things....

i have a feeling tommrow is going to be a loooong day
:-P

i love you!
bon voyage!

:-)

happy to be me

Life just couldn't get any better...
I am just a few days away from meeting the man that has fulfilled all my dreams and realities in the past 9months....

I am about to celebrate my 22nd birthday tommorow...
It will be after a while that I plan on spending the day with family and friends.
The big day is usually not a big day for me.... but this time its just so much more special.
Our comming up meeting is in a way the best gift from the one above.
Who ever it is that controls destiny and things that happen... is a great person!

I know there is uncertainties about how things will go when i meet Master and spend time with him.... but I am just looking forward to it very optimistically.
I love that feeling of my heart beating so fast.... the butterflies in my tummy.... and the wetness between my feet.
And there was something I read earlier that just put a wonderful smile on my face....
It was Pandora's comment on my last post.
It really helps so much to know someone that knows what I feel.
And it's a great feeling to hear from them...
Pandora, I am so happy it worked out for you.
And from reading a lot of the blogs that I do... I only wish to be blessed by this beautiful thing.
What beautiful thing?
The perfect picture I have painted of us in my mind... :-)
(vague...i know!)

Thanks again Pandora for your lovely comment!

quick one

Just writing to say that I love you Master

Kissesss

im back!

Yes...it's soooo good to be back home!
And finally I get to be back on a bed! LOL
Well the weekend went pretty good...there were the usual ups and downs that comes from my usual family visits...but I am glad we went.
I also got to spend some nice time with my sister and I feel much closer to her! So it was good!

We didnt really do anything much in specific...
Just spending some time with my folks...

Saturday night got really interesting.
I just kept thinking about how things will be a week from now...
Even at this moment... a week from now... I could be in your arms :-)
Needless to say I am all smiles....
I got REALLY wet just thinking about stuff... not expectations...but just about the possibilities.
I got a really big spot on my jeans... and it was so embarrasing!
:-)
But I enjoyed it...

I think I am finally getting used to being without a panty!

Well... I just wanted to write somehting on here...
I will be waiting up for you
I love you
I have missed you...

XOXO

Missing you

Just writing to say that I miss you....
It's been another busy day..
I am working on writing the code for a website my dad wants to make
So its keeping me busy :-)

I love you
Miss u

Blabber

That post was becoming too long...so I decieded to write a new one.
I figured that those that really want to know about us can scroll down and look!

About the story that you wanted me to wtrite...
I have been thinking about it...
And well thinking about a lot of other things too...

The more I think about this blog... the more vulnerable I feel...but I feel protected and safe at the same time too.
With your visit not too far from now.... We will get to know if there is something here.

.... I cant help thinking about what happens if we are not meant to be...
Yes we will always be great friends...I am sure about that...
I guess the test I took before got me thinking...
More of you agreeing with the results...
Is this the right thing for me?
I think so... but am I a good enough sub?
Have I grown from what I used to be in the very beginning?
Yes I know I dont have any kind of test results to tell me how submissive I am... but can you tell from the way I am with you?

Sometimes I wish we had done more 'experimenting' online... but then I also understand why we didnt.
I wish you had made me tie myself up and clamp up my tits and have me let it be there until you thought it was enough.
Without caring how much it hurt....
Does that make me a pain slut for wishing you had just hurt me like that?

I had figured that the week before you were coming would be a very challenging week for me.... with ups and downs....
I KNOW I want this
Sometimes I just wish I would know how things were going to be at the end of your stay

I told you I was going to freak out... :-)

please dont worry about this...

anyways...back to why I was writing this post to begin with...
please can I be excused from writing it?

every time I start out writing... I delete it.
it just makes me feel really vulnerable to write about my fantasies...
You already know what I want...
We have talked about it a several times...

I hope you understand what I feel..

I am sorry Master